Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Slowly Losing

I woke up last week to discover that I finally hit 175 pounds!!  That was a treat for me.  My new goal is to hit 173.  I'm only going a few at a time because it's much easier to achieve (especially since I've not been to the gym for a few weeks).  On top of that, this past week was very stressful and I'm craving carbs like there is no tomorrow!  After I get off of here, I'm going to grab a tomato salad and hope that curbs my desire to overeat for a while.  It's weird, once my body gets in that "stressed must eat" stage, it's hard to pull myself off of it even though the stress is gone.  I'm going to have to keep working on that or it will be my downfall.

This week I'll be trying out chia seeds and coconut oil.  Hopefully they will both aid me in losing all this additional weight.  I do wish it would come off faster, but I'm not doing enough to make that happen.  This will have to do until the hubby is not working as much.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

178 and Craving Bad Food

I have finally hit 178. I don't know why that feels like a big milestone.  But I've eaten two slices of pizza and half a sleeve of gingersnap cookies filled with lemon buttercream.  Ughh. This food battle is driving me nuts.

On a more interesting note, I've been reading about coconut oil and it's may help hypothyroid issues.  I don't know that I have hypothyroid, but I do have some of the symptoms.  My thyroid test while I was preggo came back just above the below normal range. I'm going to order some and start using it to see if it helps.

Friday, February 17, 2012

I Made it Below...

I weighed in yesterday and I'm officially at 179 pounds!  I've not stayed below 180 in years!!!  I've changed my eating habits and they will continue to get better as long as Ian has this FPIES stuff.  By then I hope it's a permanent eating lifestyle change. 

On a good note, I don't eat fast food often.  On Wednesday, we did McDonald's because we were strapped for time. Daniel got me a grilled chicken sandwich and fries.  (I would have ordered a salad, but he did good with the grilled portion.) I only had a bite of bread on the sandwich, but nothing else. Not even mayo!  As for the fries, I downed them! Ha!  But on a good note my body now hates a lot of fried foods and I have no desire to eat another batch of fries!  I love it! 

I am struggling with keeping enough veggies in the house and getting used to cooking every meal and trying to spice things up with healthy food. I luck out some because the kids are not big seafood eaters. I can buy a bag of frozen shrimp or fish and eat on them for a while and it keeps costs low.  With Ian's FPIES, I'm going to cut chicken and turkey out of my diet for a while.  It will be replaced with pork tenderloin, seafood and steak!  I also had to cut out green beans and sweet potatoes. Both have been a staple in my diet and are hard to let go.  Especially the green beans.  I love them roasted in the oven with garlic.  Mmmm!  A spinach salad is just not the same!  But I will go to any length to help the little man and I'm willing to do a whole lot of changing to see these pounds melt away.  Granted it's a slow melt, but they are coming off anyway!

My next big change will be going from milk to almond milk.  I love almond milk, but it's expensive!  Since Ian has reacted to me drinking milk before, I'm going to stop almost all dairy in my diet to see if it helps him along.  I also hope that it will keep my weight loss moving forward.

Previous weight - 184 (I was up to 187 but didn't post for a while)
Current weight - 179

Sunday, January 8, 2012

Sick Kids and Cravings

I don't want to cook. I don't want to think about eating healthy.  Strangely though, I want to run.  I missed running this past week.  Traveling over 40 hours in 3 days tends to limit one's ability to run.  And then when I came home, Ashton and Brenna came down with some kind of illness.  Ian followed a day later.  I really want a bag of chips right now.  Funyuns.  Yeah, Funyuns.  All the salty, crunchy goodness a food addict could want.  But then I want to run.  I need to run.  My emotions have been all over the place and there has been no outlet.  Right now I need some kind of physical activity to help me deal with them.  Once Daniel is home tomorrow, I plan on going to the gym and having at it.  Week 1 of my C25K plan is on and I aim to run the full 8 minutes each day. After that I don't mind going a bit slower, but this week I really want to be able to run as much as the paper says I should.

Weight - 184

Friday, January 6, 2012

Running

I did it!  Two days last week, I ran. I really ran.  The first time I made it 6 1/2 minutes.  The second time I did 7 minutes.  It was amazing to know that I could do that at all. I'm doing a Couch to 5k plan and will only advance each week if I can do the recommended schedule for 3 straight runs.  Right now I'm supposed to be doing 8 minutes but halfway through I have to skip a minute to make for a longer recovery.  Yes I could do a longer run time, but I refuse to push myself so hard that I quit.  In February, I want to add in some strength training.  The last time that I worked out regularly, I added everything in at once and could not manage the house, the kids and the sleepless nights (thanks to my sweet baby boy).  This time I'm pacing it.  I only stay on the treadmill for 30 minutes and follow the running schedule as it's written.  I still hate running, but when I did the runs, I felt very successful.  It's empowering to know that my 185 pounds of love can do that much and not collapse!

On a funnier note, I have to help you visualize my first run.  The day before I went on a date night with Daniel and friends.  I wore mascara. I didn't wash it off.  I also wore my new contacts that dried my eyes out. In the morning my eyes were red and had really dark circles under them thanks to the lack of sleep and mascara. Life happened and I still had not washed my face.  I made it to the gym with the kiddos in tow that evening. I forgot to wear my sports bra.  I started running. Thanks to the red eyes with dark circles, I already looked like a druggie. It really was that bad.  Then I started running and my bra straps started falling. Now I'm a druggie with falling bra straps. I refused to stop.  Did I mention I'm running a 5k?  That's what I held on to.  Then as I was going into my 5th one minute run, my underwear started falling.  I'm doing this to lose weight, but after 4 minutes of running I didn't think I would need new drawers!  As I headed into minute six, my bra straps keep trying to fall, my drawers are working their way down and my pants start falling. Add that to my druggie looking eyes and I was a hot mess for my first running session.  While I cleaned the treadmill I realized what I sight I must have made and walked out without making eye contact. Normally this would stop me, but instead of getting discouraged I started laughing!  What a way to start my new venture. It only gets better from here!

Weight  -184

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Couch to 5K

Starting in January, I'm going to train for a 5K. My goal is do my first race in April 2012.  I'm going to run 3 days a week until then. Training is going to be key for this little venture.  I wish I could say that I'm going to have a great food diet to go along with my new running prowess, but that will take a little more time to put in place.  I am going to start lowering my portion sizes in January and avoiding pasta as much as possible.  I've given myself the rest of the year as a freebie.  I'm eating what I want and not worrying too much about the consequences.  It will be hard letting that go, but I want to lose this fat that clings to me. It's dragging me down emotionally and is keeping my confidence down.  It's time for me to either accept the weight or do something about.  I think you know my choice.

Monday, December 19, 2011

It's Time To Begin Again!

Six months ago, the little man was born and I got rid of all the weight that I gained carrying him.  That has left me at 182 pounds.  Ugh, I'm fat.  And dont' tell me that I'm not.  I plugged in my stats on the Weight Watchers sight and they are very honest.  Granted they say it a bit nicer.  I'm not fat.  According to them, I'm obese.  Either way, I've got to get healthy and 2012 is the year for that.

I don't think it's going to be easy.  I now have four kiddos.  They take a lot of time and like a lot of things that cause my hips to expand in ways that tend to jiggle when I giggle! Ha!  And I'm a stress eater.  Lately it's gotten worse and I'm not sure how I'm going to work around that. On top of that, Ian has not slept through the night for the last few months. He's been doing a little screaming jags intermittently and we can't figure what is going on.  That leaves me pretty darn tired throughout the day. 

Well, who ever said good things are easy?  Not me. I don't get easy often.  That's okay though. Here are my goals.  I want to get down to 140 pounds. I want to lose at least half of that next year.  I want to stop eating when I'm stressed and replace that with exercise or some other healthy activity.  I want to run a 5k this summer.  I want to lose enough weight to wear my wedding rings again. I refuse to stretch out the rings because that feels like defeat.  I want to wear a size 10 in jeans again.  I want to wear medium or large shirts again.  I want to be comfortable in my own skin. 

So I'm back.  Once I quit breastfeeding in June, I plan on taking hoodia again.  Before I got pregnant, it was the only thing that helped with the stress eating. Until then. I'm not sure how I'm going to make all of the above happen, but I will!

Merry Christmas folks!

Thursday, September 16, 2010

IFinally, A New Post

Well folks, I've been working out.  Tonight I'm even going to Zumba.  But, I'm not seeing any reduction on the scale. That is pretty disappointing.  I wish I could say I've dropped 5 pounds after going to the gym 3-4 times a week, but it's not like that at all. But I'm getting my endurance up and I'm finally getting some muscle definition in my arms, legs and back.  That's encouraging and enough to keep me going.  Lord willing the weight will follow.

Saturday, July 24, 2010

The Battle Continues

Weight: 177

I hate to say it, but maybe having Daniel in Peru for a week wont be all bad.  You see, he's a horrible influence on a dieting woman.  This week I fed him smoked salmon pasta in a vodka sauce and chicken and biscuits casserole. I'm addicted to vodka sauce.  I can't leave a bowl of pasta alone if it's covered in that sauce.  And the biscuits... I have cellulite that is shaped in their image on my hips.  It's a sad sight.  And I wont discuss the eating out we did.  It's just not right.

So even though my on honey is gone, I may be able to lose a few more pounds.  I went for a walk in this morning with the kids.  I had Brenna in the Kelty backpack carrier and Ashton walked.  We stopped at the library to cool down and read a few book.  Then we headed home.  The kids are asleep and I'm a sweaty mess.  Yes, I know you needed to hear that!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Woohoo!

Weight 176.4

Oh yeah baby!  I'm down to 176.4!!!  Well on my way to seeing 175 again.  After I had Ashton, I was 166 lbs.  Then the mean doctors told me that I needed to get more fat in my milk for Ashton to help him gain weight to match their charts.  I tried and gained 10 lbs.  Ashton, well he didn't gain squat!  So I'm hoping to see that 166, but I'll be okay with 175 this week! 

So what am I doing?  Well, first and foremost, I'm moving more.  Daniel and I are hoping to hit the gym and pool more, but even doing stuff around the house is helping.  After that I'm making better choices eating.  It's not easy to replace pasta with other stuff, but it's working.  Thankfully rice does not have the effect that pasta does on me.  It also doesn't taste as good in a summer pasta salad, but who cares.  I'm losing weight.

I do hope that some of this loss starts happening around my waste.  I'm still not seeing any change in how my pants fit.  That's disappointing.  But it's slowly coming off my face and some in my chest.  That's a good start!

We'll see what tomorrow brings!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Still Going

Weight: 179

Well, this weekend was tough. I could not resist the Funyuns and then had country fried steak for lunch the next day.  My goodness.  I think this extra stuff on me is mostly water weight from all the salt.  Well see over the next few days.  Life is holding Daniel and I back from the gym today. We have to get the windshield replaced in the van and he had to take friends to pick up a truck this morning, so no gym.  And we have VBS tonight, so we will not be going.  Ugh!

Today I'm off to a better start.  I had fish and shrimp for lunch and one cake ball.  I didn't do breakfast because I seem to lose more that way.  I'll be having Special K for a snack later.  I'm not sure what dinner is going to look like, but I intend to get back on the not eating after 7-8pm track today, so I hope it's good!  We'll see what the scale says tomorrow!

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I Ran 3 Whole Minutes!!!

Weight: 177.4

Wow!  Actually it was three minutes and 10 seconds, but whose counting!  Daniel and I went to the gym.  About 5 minutes in, I decided to do the interval thing and see if I could run for a minute.  It sucked and I was huffing and puffing like a fool, but I did it.  Then about five minutes later I recovered enough to move on to the next minute bout and right at the end, I finished the run with another minute.  So now that I have that baseline, I can't go back.  Daniel and I are planning on going all next week and making this a new lifestyle change.  I'm planning on running a race at some point.  And this new beginning is going to get me there.  My neighbor can already go two miles.  I have a long way to go if I want to match her, but running each day will get me there.  And, Lord willing, it will help me shed a lot of extra weight!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Eating Healthier Day 1

Weight: 177.6

Ha!  Dieting cracks me up!  You just keep doing it over and over again.  You stop, you gain, you start and the cycle continues.  I stopped dieting when Ashton got hit with the mono thing a few weeks ago.  It was hard because I wanted to lose weight fast.  But in the long run, I think it was for the best.  The lack of food was making me insanely cranky.  I hate being like that.  If I start it again, I'm going to strive for 1200 calories.  Having only 500 is nuts.  I'm glad that some folks find great success at it, but it's not for me.

On a good note, I'm started eating better again and it's slowly paying off.  The stomach flu gig knocked me around some, but I'm back and ready to get this thing going. I'm going to be cutting out most white wheat carbs. I'm trying to let go of pasta.  I may still have some small amounts here and there.  I need to add some more yogurt in my diet and I'm upping my meat intake.  That along with eating fresh veggies will help me shred some of these pounds.

Speaking of shredding, Daniel and I are hitting the gym daily next week.  Lord willing no sick children or adults will prevent us from making that dream a reality!  And I'm going to start working towards my goal of running a 5k.  My neighbor is up to running two miles and I'm jealous!  She looks great and all the hard work she's been putting into it is paying off. 

So I want to do that as well.  I want to feel stronger and be able to run again.  So here goes.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Day 12

Weight: 178.2
Amount Lost: .8 lbs.

I'm shocked on this one right now.  I'm hoping to keep it up.  Too tired right now to write more.

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Day 11

Weight: 179
Gain: .8 lbs.

Well, things have changed here. I've decided to move the HCG from the logo. I'm not sure how long I'm going to stay on it and dieting is going to be a part of what I regularly do until it becomes an everyday lifestyle. But, right now it's tough as all get out. Ashton was up every hour last night except for six o'clock hour. I'm not eating right and I need to go to the grocery store so I can get back on track. I also need some vitamin supplements to help out. If I'm cutting things out, I need to make sure I get enough calcium. On top of that not getting enough sleep is killing me. But, I'm determined to lose a total of 55 lbs. I'll be happy with 40, but I like being an over-achiever!
Hopefully I'll come back with some weight loss news today.  Not sure.  I really need a grocery run and I don't know if that will happen.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Day 10

Well, I weighed myself this morning and forgot what it was.  Isn't that sad.  This lack of sleep thing was killing me.  I remember my initial thought was that I didn't lose anything, but I honestly can't remember if the scale said 178.2 or 179.2.  I did realize that I can't eat any pasta type thing.  I had homemade chicken noodle soup with the kids and I'm sure that's what stalled things.  I also didn't drink enough water. But sick kids will do that to you. I brought some Melba toast as was recommended on the hcg diet and they do seem to help with the carb cravings. 

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Day 9

Weight: 178.2
Amount Lost: 1 lb.
Total Lost: 6.3 lbs.

I didn't have the HCG yesterday and was hungry.  So I ate some leftover pizza from my MIL's get together and some Special K.  Part of me is wondering if I even need the HCG or if I need to just keep doing a low calorie, high protien, low carb diet.  We'll see while I'm on my period. 

My little man is sick as a dog today.  He threw up in my bed around 4 this morning and now has a migraine.  My heart breaks for him.  He's only 2 and has a migraine.  Poor kid.

Well, we'll see how things go today and if I can keep dropping a pound a day without the HCG.  If not, I'll go back on it.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Day 8

Weight: 179.2
Amount Lost: .6 lbs.
Total Lost: 5.3 lbs.

Ughh!  Just started my period this morning.  I would love to say that it's why I haven't lost more, but we ate out yesterday and then had dinner at my in-laws last night.  So with all that and my period, I think .6 is doing pretty darn good.

And as for eating out and eating at other folks houses, you just have to use your best judgement.  We went to Panera and I ordered a Chicken, Strawberrry and Poppyseed Salad.  Most of the things in the salad are on the allowed list for the diet.  I forgot to tell the hubby not to get salad dressing on it.  But even with the dressing and all that, according to the Panera board, it only had 280 calories.  As for dinner, my MIL made some on the grill pizzas.  I had a small portion of the two kinds and a salad.

Per the protocol, I have to stop taking drops during this week. It should be interesting.  The drops are not fully controlling the hunger as it is.  I'm going to do my best.  Losing 5 lbs. in a week is a good motivator! And on a good note, the bloating after this week should go down considerably.

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Day 7

Weight: 179.8
Amount Lost: 1 lb.
Total Lost: 4.7 lbs.

I have to get some Melba Toast.  My body is not giving up carbs as easily as I wished it would.  I have to have a boost mid-day.  I took some extra carbs last night but it was more habit than anything.  I also did not track my food as well (a.k.a. at all) yesterday.  Not good.  So today is a new day.  I'm sure it's not helping that I'm going to start soon.  That's keeping me a bit bloated.  With almost 5 pounds gone, I should be seeing a little difference in the top of my stomach (that's normally where I see it first), but all this bloating is keeping me puffy.  It's a bit discouraging.

Today is Father's Day. I'm so blessed to have my wonderful hubby!  But I hope that he'll decide to eat at home today. Eating out kills me.  And snacking.  But I'm determined to get better!  I love knowing these pounds are coming off! I'm hoping that I'll keep averaging a pound a day. That would be awesome!

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Day 6 & Still Losing

Weight: 180.8
Amount Lost: 2 lbs.

Color me shocked, but yesterday was one of my worst cheating days. I guess I'm going to lose anyway because I'm so overweight that any reduced amount of calories will work on me!  I'm sure I would lose more without the cheating, but life happens and I'm doing my best. I keep having carb cravings at lunch. I'm going to try more of that chicken soup at lunch today and see if that helps me get past that. 

As far as the cheating, the hubby and I went out for dinner last night.  Ihad a grilled chicken ceasar and one poppy seed roll.  I only ate half the salad withought dressing.  I did down all the fried onions and put a little of the dressing on them.  But then after that, I felt stuffed and a bit ill.  I count that as a good thign because I'll be less likely to gorge.

After that we went to JC Penny's to get me a few pairs of shorts.  They were both size 16 and a bit tight.  Lord willing that will change soon.  I truly want to be at least a size 10 again.  I really want to fit in an 8. That's were I was before Sarah.  An 8 would be awesome!

Anyway, it's back to the weight loss rat race today.  I'm hoping to break into the 170's tomorrow.  I'm going to try to do my measurements tonight.  I would love to see how many inches I lose in addition to the weight.